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Monday, November 24th, 2008
9:17 pm	Stupid Thing IBF did. D: Goddamn I hate when these are dead on... It says: "Name: Michael Date: 11/24/2008 Colorgenics Number: 37510426   You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right. You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised. Although you are, deep down, a very caring person, you are very particular in the choice of friends and indeed very demanding at times. You can be most quarrelsome and controversial and it is because of this argumentative trait you can at times explode into open conflict - conflict with even those you may care for and love. It is because of this inherent argumentative streak in you that may have resulted in broken hopes and dreams. You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes. You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working."  Current Mood: Scared Current Music: Shinwa ~ Rentrer en Soi (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 23rd, 2008
8:20 pm	Update [And LEECH Review]  So I feel pretty accomplished now. I updated today and yesterday, as well as being able to get the reviews of at least two recent releases written. I feel a hell of a lot better now. Work was an absolute pain in the fucking ass today, didn't help I had a 9 hour shift. That's right, nine hours on a part-time employment. Goddamn Thanksgiving, almost makes me wanna be emo. Hahaha~ Anyways, that's all I really have to say... LEECH ~ I don't know about other people, but I really love the female voices that GazettE have been using. They add a new feeling to their already hard rock style, and it's really not a popular feeling either. So on that note, this is probably my favorite GazettE song in a long long time, if not ever. The guitars  and drums really shine here. Sorry Reita but you sound amazing too~ That and the song lyrics, are how I feel a lot of the time with one of my ex's that commited suicide while we were together. Lonliness, someday... DISTORTED DAYTIME ~ Holy shit this song is really cool too. Besides Kai's fucking difficult drum part. Damn him and his complicated beats. But they are quite amazing. This song is really good, especially for being a b-side track. I don't know what all to say about it beside the delicate feeling it presents in the verse, then the rough shattering feeling you get for the chorus. The title really is emphasized with the moods of the instruments. Oh and REITA this song is part yours because you bring out the distortion of the songs meaning. HOLE ~ This song has the ol' groovy feel that GazettE is probably known for. It's definitely seen in their past album NIL. Once again, REITA it's all you, well you and the guitars for this one. Nah it's all of the instruments. Kai has got another brilliant but difficult pattern going on again. I'm not to thrilled with Ruki's singing, but meh with the past two songs I can get over it. Hahaha~ Current Mood: blah Current Music: Ambivilant Ideal ~ LYNCH (Comment on this)
8:17 pm	UROBOROS REVIEW [FINALLY]   UROBOROS REVIEW     Sa Bir ~ So this is an intro, instrumental song. It sounds really neat with the pulsing beat and the oriental themed instruments. It would be neat to have this be the intro they come on stage with; but I won't know if this is until Dec.     Vinushka ~ I can officially say that every song of Diru's that is extended such as this one, makes me incredibly happy. This song has such qualities to it that make you feel certain emotions at certain times. I also enjoy the fact that Kyo's voice is back at top shape, but is still able to growl and scream with such efficiency. This is probably my favorite 7+ minute song because of the rough metal parts, and the hushed acapella's. And the way they can successfully mesh those two together in less that 2 second gaps its really amazing. One last thing, the extended on and off use of the accoustic guitars by BOTH members. This makes me feel more unity to the song's meaning and emotion.     Red Soil ~ The effects the guitars have in this song really bring out Kyo's voice for some reason. Even when they play normal distortion and Kyo whispers, it brings out a specific feeling. I also feel the need to bring up Shinya's drumming for this song. As a drummer myself I listen for the way the drums are played, and what side drumset pieces are used. Such as cymbals, and toms. His bass drum has become so much more faster and he plays the snare differently in different places. He has just evolved in his playing.     Doukoku to Sarinu ~ This reminds me a bit of Hydra just because of the soft gentle parts, going right into a stronger progressive rock beat. Kyo's singing in this isn't really too amazing aside from the chorus, but somehow in this album that doesn't matter. Not really much to say aside from that.     Toguro ~ I love the intro to this song. Especially Kaoru's riff, ooohhh so powerful, and leads right into a jazzy Die riff. One thing I love about Dir en grey is there way of making albums feel like more than one genre. This song is really jazzy and stands out from the rest. One more mention, but Kyo's voice in this song makes me VERY happy. Despite all he's been through...     Glass Skin [ENG] ~ Skipping. I don't like the english version. Already did a review of this single. Basically it is an amazing song.     Stuck Man ~ Once again, shall I mention the different styles in the song. This song is very strong, but also has a swing feel to it. [By the way jazz and swing ARE different.] I really like the bass part and drum part in this song. Sure the guitars are together and have interesting riffs, the bass is brought out just beautifully and the drums sound so random and sporadic yet organized. Oh and the drums and bass are the main points in the little middle interlude. Which is really amusing to me and I don't know why.     Reiketsu Nariseba ~ The only thing I don't like about this song is that it's pretty repetative feeling. But the nice part is that the instrumental interlude in the middle is interesting and retrospective. The harpsichord in this song really brings out the feeling in this song, but what that feeling, emotion, is I don't know. The riff right after the middle instrumental makes me want to headbang like crazy though. Haha~     Ware, Yami Tote... ~ A seven minute song. Oh my god. And it's a fucking orgasmic song at that. Kyo's voice in this song is truly amazing and breathtaking. Once again the acoustic guitars make a reappearance, which is good because this song is very mellow and almost melancholy feeling. It's emphasized during the chorus with the high, but soft notes played in the back of Kyo's singing. Even better, by the end of the first verse and chorus, the song is already two minutes in. That's pretty rare for songs without introductory instrumentals. Once again the middle instrumental is jazzy for a bit, then goes into Kyo singing with a simple beat, into the heartshattering guitars' high note and Kyo's singing which sounds like he's begging for death.     Bugaboo ~ I must say with a title like this, I really wasn't sure what to expect. And the intro is so creepy and calming that it's almost misleading when the main riff starts. This song reminds me of a Repetition of Hatred the way one guitar is high pitched and the other is strong and low, only this song is done WAY better than that one. And hey Kyo isn't even singing well, he's mainly growling and making noises. What sets this one apart is the unity that the guitars bring, and Kyo's voice brings. I think the biggest thing is how the instruments and Kyo's voice represent the emotional feel of the lyrics. It's almost eerie, bringing feelings of torment; despite the title. Haha~     Gaika Chinmoku ga Nemuru Koro ~ Favorite song on this album, between the intro, and the very fast paced and addicing melody and rhythm of the verses. Reminds me soooo much of Berry in the way that they guitars and drums literally drive you through the song at intense speeds. The chorus are as always relaxing and gentle, but not one second is wasted before rushing you one-hundred MPH through the next verse. I can't think of any other analogy to fit how I feel when I listen to this song. OH wait I do have one. The ending of this song, reminds me of how I would feel if I was walking up to some device like a guillotine, like I was on death row and about to lose my life.     Dozing Green [ENG] ~ Dozing green was amazing, not into the english versions in the slightest.   Inconvenient Ideal ~ Amazingly this song isn't one of my favorites. I know right. Am I crazy? However I never said I hated this song either. HA! It's very calm and easy going, almost simplistic, which isn't too much like the rest of the album; but as per-mentioned, this is why I love Dir en grey so. I love the bass and drum in this song so much, as well as the vocals, but the guitars just seem to clash a little bit to me. Excluding the chorus, of course. The power and emotion behind every member during the chorus is what forms the purpose and moral of this song.  Current Mood: blah Current Music: Stuck Man ~ Dir en grey (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 22nd, 2008
8:34 am	Man time is just flying by, and here I sit just watching it go as I get nothing done. And then when it's too late I realize that I could've gotten what I need done. Bothers the shit out of me how I have this natural DNA construction of a lazy mo-fo. @_@ Mini-rant aside, I felt the need to address a few things. First off, this is going to be my main place of...confession. I'm going to take a break until the end of the semester to be on forums and other web-places, MSN and here will be the few places I go to. Also, my poetry, which I've been writing like fucking crazy, will be going up here also. AND FURTHER MORE I finally fixed my damn scanner and so in coordination with my AP STUDIO ART class i will be putting up scans of some of my favorite pieces that I've done.  Oh yeah and I spoke of a Uroboros and LEECH review...heh. Whoops. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Shadow VI II I ~ the GazettE (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 12th, 2008
5:38 am	11/12/2008 Today is a most exciting day it seems. We're going to the art museum at school down in Denver. So excited. I need ideas and concepts for my portfolio really bad. Hopefully amist the packet we have to do, I can get some sketches done. =/ I also got my copy of LEECH by the GazettE today. I had't seen the cover art for this single until now. It's really quite interesting, in that GazettO kind of way.  The CD version sounds so much better than the crappy PV rip that I had. The guitars play so many different notes and chords at strategic places it makes my head spin. And I can hear gorgeous Reita now too. x333 As for Distorted Daytime, i'm not sure how I feel about this song quite yet. It certainly is creative, Kai has a very confusing but precise drum part. Hole, which I had never heard until now, is very cool. It has the hard guitar styles from old NIL. It reminds me of that album because of the style it was written. :3 I'm thinking by the end of today I will have a comprehensive review of LEECH, MUSIC [Girugamesh's album], and UROBOROS [Dir en grey's album]. That should be interesting eh? Needless to say I really like all three of these releases. x333 Current Mood: artistic Current Music: HOLE ~ the GazettE (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 30th, 2008
6:05 pm	Poetry Update [04/30/08] I find myself wondering, why do I post my life stories on here, when truely only a few people read them. I'd much rather share my poetry than my life stories, especially as of late. So this is going to become my poetry hub; I feel the title of the journal still would fit rather well. And to kick off this nice change, I have a few poems that I just wrote in the past two days. Enjoy and Critique~! Title: Forgiven My suspicions were corrent, you lied and cheated your way to my heart. Nay, this is the second time, how foolish of me to let you be forgiven. At the bottom of my heart, I see a section labeled with your name. However it really is a trap door; will I open it ever again? Nay, this is the Nth time, how idiotic of me, to reopen hopeless things. How foolish of me to let you be forgiven, . . . again and again. ------------------------------------ Title: Under the Knife I can't breathe, I can't move, but my eyes are open and I can see. What am I doing on this metal bed in this darkened desperate room? Oh Doctor, wake me up inside. Let me still be alive. Don't take my life. Please, I can hear the flesh tear, see your knife slide down me. Their's no pain, no sensation to feel, what is wrong? Is it too late? Oh Doctor, bring me back to life. Do your job and save me. Please, just stop. The traditional cut, as performed in autopsies; I can see my flushed body. Did he know I was alive from the start, did I really even know? Oh Doctor, what do you think it's like, Under the Knife? ------------------------------------------------- Title: MOON Outside, just you and I. Dancing outside our well-lit homes. Dancing under the brilliant midnight moon. Our shadows, dim as they are, follow the dance moves identically to us. I will remember this night forever, I will remember this night until the shadows stop following and the moon stops shining. Two shadows, holding each other in tight embrace, kiss each other tenderly; under the brilliant midnight moon. I will remember this night, until the blood in my veins run cold and still. Current Mood: busy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 18th, 2008
8:30 pm	~ Lyric explains my mood and current life events ~ ARMOR RING [translation] by alice nine. Won't you walk with me on the unending journey? I ask you Even if you're just struck by the rain, I'll hold out my hand and protect you, you'll become a flower Till we met, I didn't believe in living for anyone's sake, the interrupted circuit is linked I awake, and kiss you on the cheek, like I no longer hate anyone anymore On the afternoon of that day, I was holding on to nothing If I close my eyes, I think I'm able to say to you – I'll promise to you On your sleek ring finger, I put on a ring called 'Promise', there's colour reflected in these eyes I thought there was nothing, your existence repainted this world Even the unimportant words are treasures to me, I've caught all the elements to make it I awake, and kiss you on the cheek, like I no longer hate anyone anymore I'm giving this ring to you, I won't lose sight of it When you're drowning in some form of darkness, I'll find you Dreams give dreams, today I'm living as well, because this withered voice is calling for you The colour that dyes the sky is a burning emerald, time is stopped, even the heartbeat So precious time What am I living for? So precious time I didn't know So precious time If it's now, certainly So precious time I know. I'm giving this ring to you, I won't lose sight of it When you're drowning in some form of darkness, I'll find you On your sleek ring finger, I put on a ring called 'Promise', there's colour reflected in these eyes I thought there was nothing, your existence repainted this world So precious time What am I living for? So precious time You taught me So precious time I want to protect So precious time you Current Mood: distressed (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 5th, 2008
11:59 am	We will crush them all like Bloodmeat [Entry 1/5/08] Wow I almost put oh-seven for the year again. My god it's bad enough that I get the days of the month mixed up sometimes. Like yesterday I thought it was the fifth. Hahaha~ I think that this is my first actual update in the new year. That last thing was just something Kelynn did that entertained me. So let's see what can I talk about... New Years Eve was pretty nice, decided to be a lone person surrounded by friends I love and am loved by. I talked to a lot of people and watched some guy [I can't remember his name] jump the distance of a football field on a motorbike. Oh I also had a lot of wine to drink, it was so yummy yummy. Yes that's right, I drink, leave me alone. Wine and Vodka that's all I'll drink. Like last night, my mom brought home these really good wine coolers, flavor was Peach, yummy. I drank three my mom had three. Needless to say I was rather happy and  chipper. Wow I got sidetracked. New Years Day, was possibly the worse day in the world. A lot of things happened that I don't feel like mentioning, and one that if I bring up will turn into a large super huge rant; full of vulgar language mind you. I just basically want to ask, why is humanity getting more and more idiotic. I mean sure I don't think things through cause I have low logic sense, but some people just can't grasp the concept of intelligence or common sense. It's really been getting on my nerves lately. Just like the saying goes, life gets worse before it gets better, correct? Well so far this year is a good example of it. New Years I was in a bad mood, people were driving me fucking insane, and then after that, things looked up. They got better and better and better until now. Basically, the main basis of my happiness, is that I, even though I made a certain pact, and back with a certain man. <3 I loved him so much and when he left me it hurt, but I couldn't let go of him you know. Then he, at about 2AM said things and poof we are back together, only I'm really really happy now. Unfortunately he isn't here, and gone for the weekend. I miss him, oh well, I'll see him when school starts. Speaking of which, I'm possibly the only human in the world ready for school. I didn't do good last semester because of the play, but I'm doing no extracurricular activities [except Art Club which isn't too time consuming] so I can focus on grades. And I get to see my friends that I have severely missed. ... Don't get me crying again. Hahaha~ Not to mention, I got the two classes I've been wanting for a long time, but was reserved for only Junior/Seniors. Psychology and Computer Graphics. >8D Wow, this has got to be my largest entry yet by far. I feel rather accomplished though. Hope you all read [even though I doubt it]. O_o; ----- Michael U. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Protest the Hero [my new fav band] (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 2nd, 2008
11:02 pm	[Here Kelynn xD] LIttle interesting picture thing.~ Top ten of 2007! Top 10 Men (or chicks) of 2007 1. Pick your top 10 men (or women if you want) of 2007. 2. In your journal, rank them, starting with 10 and ending with 1. Include pictures, their names, their profession, and why you chose them. 3. Tag people 10. Taro Yamamoto He is an actor. Most famous for Battle Royale, a movie based on the popular Manga. OMG he's hot. XDDD Plus he's just, amazingly talented. 9. Johnny Bell [JB] Famous Florida Comedian and poker dealer. Also known on the NLO podcast. He's hilarious and one of the best guys in the world. 8. Garfield That's right. My favorite feline in the world. OMG he's the best. I love him. I know he's not human nor real, but fuck off I love him. GOTOHELL~! 7. Kaoru That's right. Kaoru from the band Dir en grey. Gotta love him. He's hot. Plus, Cyber Kimono = Win. <3 6. Rahda Mitchell I like her. <3 Best known for Silent Hill. The best Game Adaptation movie ever. Her Acting was UNBELIEVABLE and continues to be flawless. 5. Jackie Chan I don't care, I like Jackie Chan. Freaking Rocks. Lets see, he's a martial artist, actor, interpretor, translator, singer...and that is it. XD Talented. I like him for his acting in Rush Hour 1,2, and 3. <3 4. Kyo Yep. Vocalist of Dir en grey. <3 The best singer ever, but I honestly love him for his writing ability. His lyrics and poems are AMAZING and I connect to a lot of them. <3 2. ... ... ... ... I got nothing. 1. Michael U. Couldn't think of anymore, and I'm way tired. But it's me. :O Nobody on LJ's seen my picture, so here yah go. <3 (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 30th, 2007
7:37 pm	Oldies but Goodies [Entry 12/30/2007] One day closer to the end of this horrid year. Aren't you all excited, I know I am. As per my title, I've been playing Guitar Hero 3 a lot lately. About 18 hours since Christmas day. I think it's officially and addiction. Anyways, I'm listening to a bunch of classic rock songs. Aerosmith, Kiss, Heart, Def Leppard, STYX, etc. I'm loving it. These are such good classic artists, I miss rock when it was like this. Sucks I couldn't have lived through this period. Man I drank an XXL Monster Energy Drink and I feel pretty happy and hyper right now, despite all that's been going on. DETROIT ROCK CITY MOTHERFUCKER!!!! YEAHHHHH!!!!! Hahaha god I'm high. @_@; I decided on my one new year resolution I'm going to keep. It's to not take shit from idiots and irritants. Everybody who knows me I'm vulgar and abusive when I want to be. Well I decided to give people who deserve it, a taste of my wrath, instead of letting them have their way. I can keep this, cause I love cussing people out, even though it's prolly a bad thing. >>; Anything else I want to talk about. Lets see. OH the greatest invention ever, the Staples Easy Button. "That was Easy". I love this freaking thing. I have a picture of me holding it on my myspace. Lol. So entertaining I don't get it. Guess that's it losers, Love you all, MU Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Let's Put the X in Sex ~ KISS (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 29th, 2007
7:47 pm	Entry [12/29/2007] Part Two: After-effects Well it's official. I am single once again, however this time I feel good about it. Don't get me wrong it hurt like hell to leave the poor man that loved me so much and I loved just as much, but this is going to be for the best. I swear it is; if not, then I might as well kill myself as without love I don't have any reason to live. Maybe that's a bit extreme, but that's how I feel currently. Such a confusing conundrum this has turned out to be. This year has been such a crazy hectic year that is ending on painful selfish note. Hopefully the next year will be rewarding, I could really use a good year, I haven't truely loved my life for three years now. Hopefully 2008 is the best that I hope it to be. To Ama, Shu, Ivonne, and Brandon, I'm sorry for everything this year has been. For everything I have done, put you through, and hopefully you forgive me. I love all four of you and I will always continue to love you, and hopefully you will do the same. Let us start the new year on a high note. Take my hand and I'll fly you to the ends of the Earth, as long as you all are happy. Fuck 2007, I'm ready for the goddamn new year. And I pray to hell it's better. ~~~~~~ Michael Ulm Current Mood: Hopeful Current Music: ain't afraid to die ~ Dir en grey (Comment on this)
11:44 am	[Entry 12/29/2007] Part 1: Beforehand Well, nothing much to say really besides today is going to suck. I have a lot to do, and I broke up with my BF. ; Don't ask too much why please, but my dear friend and I talked for like an hour about it and we decided it's best. Shu also knows some of what I'm talking about, I decided to be what we discussed last night. I'm done with love for the current time. Not because I can't find the right person, I've already faced that factuality before, it's that my heart wanders to many people. Right now, I can think of three people I love and would want to spend the rest of my life with, yet I can't have all three, nor have one of them and be happy semi-loving the other two. Just doesn't work. I'm too caring and loving of a person to love eternally just one person. I refuse. The hopeless romantic in me wants to find that one special someone, but my logic doesn't beleive anymore that it's possible. Especially when I love four people equally right now. Even though two of them I may never meet, I still love them dearly. It's so hard sometimes yah know? So that's why I'm giving it time, giving me time, to be single but open Current Mood: distressed Current Music: Mushi ~ Dir en grey (Comment on this)
Friday, December 28th, 2007
9:09 pm	Like Psychostick; Couldn't think of a Title [Entry 12/28/2007] I've been updating rather frequently lately. Pretty shocking I know. Today, well how do I say this, I had fun being mad at a certain person. I guess I shouldn't use bad language here but oh is it so hard to not and explain the situation correctly. Basically, my friend doesn't understand me, and she's no longer in my life. Haha, that was easy. I've been playing Guitar Hero 3 for my PC so much lately. I'm finally getting the hang of using my pinky to hit the darn blue button. It's really complicated, more than I though. But I'm catching on. Hammer On's and Pull Off's I finally understand as well. Man they are fun. <3 The other game is F.E.A.R., but that game is really hard to play because combat is intense. The 'bad guys' are intelligent, they use real tactics and can sneak behind you if you aren't cautious. It really sucks how smart the programmers made them. That and, for once I found a game that scares the shit out of me. I can't play the game for more than an hour when alone in the dark. The sounds combined with the lighting and timing just makes the game beautifully horrifying. Back to reality. Christmas was great, haven't had time to work-out so I'm sure I gained a lot of weight; even though I'm already overweight. D; Not to mention it's snowy, at least one foot of snow, and below 0 degrees Fahrenheit most of the day. Man it sucks. I hate Winter, and Summer. Where's a state that has long Springs' and Autumns'? Wow this is longer than I thought. Oh well, I need to speak my mind. Oh by the way, to all of you that have a heart and tried to help me, I feel much better today. I thank you so much for helping me through that tough time. <3 Love you all~ MU Current Mood: calm Current Music: Turn Soonest to the Sea ~ Protest the Hero (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 27th, 2007
8:36 pm	A poem [12/27/2007] [Just written in this state of mind] My eyes wander, in all directions. I feel your presence in my heart. Yes your physical body I can't find. Where are you? The one that loves me? The only ones that care? I miss your love, return to my heart once again. The stars are hidden behind clouds, like you are hidden from my love. Somewhere far away, even though I love you as if you were near. I want to hold you, have you once more, but when I reach out for you, your image disappears. Separated by such long distances, but connected so close by heart. Never have met in person, but I love you more than anything. Trust me, when I find you, I'll make the moment last, I'll make it worth an eternity of smiles. Current Mood: yep, still crying Current Music: Zakuro ~ Dir en grey (Comment on this)
8:11 pm	-_-; [Entry 12/27/2007] I really, feel, rather depressed right now. For some reason, there are friends that I have a close relationship with, and I haven't been able to talk to them for a long time. I feel like my heart is slowly shattering. I officially tonight cried. And the first thing that came to mind is the song Zakuro by Dir en grey. This lyric here is for all you people I miss so so so dearly. Wish I could be online all the time for you, my dears, just wait and I'll be there for you once again. -tears up again- Fuck, I can't help but cry. Pomegranate My voice screamed out your name Even if it surely won't reach you    my voice But even so, I'm fine now One day in my heart you will be... I'll dream tonight too, dreams of you Because of your letter that I put under my pillow My dreams are too cruel, my breath hitches As always, I wake in pain around 4 in the morning Time is too long Time is too painful The dreams don't stop My love is frozen, dead On cold nights like in this long night My consciousness is torn apart becoming small pieces my memories scattering I grasp your ring so tightly that my tears soaking the pillow Like I can't hear, I blocked my ears to your voice One more scar added to my wrist Melting into the wound    you I am broken    the letter burnt    reduced to ashes I am broken    my heart broken    reduced to ashes I am broken    I lost you    I love you. Current Mood: crying my head off Current Music: Zakuro/Mushi ~ Dir en grey (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 25th, 2007
11:04 pm	Tired and Possible Rant [12/25/2007] So what all can I say to make people happy. I have been slow on my updates, and my last post was a load 'of shit' to quote people. xD Christmas, well I'm actually happy, and still in a good mood, even though it's about 11PM. A little later than I'm used too, but oh well. I got people to entertain me. Let's see, I only got three things, but I wanted them badly. They include F.E.A.R. Platinum Edition, Halloween 25th Anniversary Edition, and Guitar Hero 3 for my PC. So yeah my wrist hurts really bad cause I think I've played that game a total of 6 hours. Tomorrow, nothing but quick clean up, F.E.A.R., and sleep. OMG I've been so busy even after school and I fucking deserve a few days of rest, and thank god they are here. -snuggles with a pillow- Shoutouts to Kelynn: May you be happy and continue to be the best! 8D Brandon: My BF, I love you. x3 MU Current Mood: amused Current Music: Turn Soonest to the Sea ~ Protest the Hero (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 22nd, 2007
9:18 am	Short Sweet and To the Point [December 22. 2007] I feel like shit~ Life sucks. Thank god i have friends. Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 25th, 2007
7:26 am	OMGWTF [11/25/07] It's after Thanksgiving, all the food is put away in our stomachs, leftover; if they exist, are eaten for dinner soon after. Christmas decorations and trees finish flooding the stores as anxious early buyers rush to the store like it was last minute shopping. What fun~ Yes I am back with an update, life has been, how do I put this, interesting. I'm not going to go into detail about it, but the result is needless to say a happy one. If you don't already know, I have a boyfriend. His name is Brandon [just like my ex] but it's fun to call him B-don. xDDD But we are happy, and we lose a lot of night time sleep talking to each other on the phone. But now it's time for school so who knows how it's gonna work. -shrugs- I want to thank, if you read this, the people who have gotten me gifts [although early] for Christmas. I love them very much and I can't wait to receive more. I'm also giving out a few gifts to some special people. Wish I had money to give all of my friends a gift but I don't. -_-; Yesterday was just delightful, two albums were givin to me that I've been hoping for. Vidoll's BASTARD and Versailles' Lyrical Symphonies. Both albums are so amazingly beautiful. <3 But as usual when my life goes really great, karma has to come and bite my ass. What happened this time? Well as I was at my grandparents house helping that day, they live 40 miles away, and I make it up their fine. When I get ready to drive home, my car decides to not start. So I had to get it towed home, and ride the tow truck home. Luckily I know the driver really well so it wasn't an awkward drive home. I feel better however now. <3 A new day a new adventure. Current Mood: calm Current Music: Tree ~ Vidoll (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 23rd, 2007
7:34 pm	I was right [10/23/2007] So as most of you could tell, I'd been having stressful times. Well as I anticipated, this week is already horrible. It's only Tuesday night! I've been rather depressed all day today, and the day got progessively worse making me even less happy. Good side. I got Dozing Green. Tis amazing. Also alice nine. put up their track list for their new album [ALPHA] which I DID buy. <3 Can't wait. Short sweet and to the point. Oh and don't forget NaNoWriMo starts next week. If you don't know what that is go here. Horrible life, horrible existance, death and depression. Michael U. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: DOZING GREEN ~ Dir en grey (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 21st, 2007
8:36 pm	Procrastination [10/21/2007] I'm really not anxious for this next week. I have so much crap to do. I'll be on the internet so little and I'll be working around the school during and after school just for this damned play which I never anticipated would be such a hassle. Right now i'm relaxing after cleaning the entire house all day. I'm hoping that I get sick so I don't have to go to school, I'm even debating pretending being sick cause I'm usually good at that. I should miss a day of school, but god I could really use a break. On more positive news, I have listened to Dozing Green [Dir en grey] and TSUBASA [alice nine.] about a million times now. I love them soooo much, I can't wait for the actual singles to arrive though. Well actually I'm not getting Dir en grey's cause I preordered albums instead, but you get the idea. xD -friends- Now to curl up and watch DECOMPOSITION BEAUTY TOUR 06-07. NIGHT ALL~ Michael U. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Worthless War by the GazettE (Comment on this)